01.10.13

Four Letter Lie... (not just a band.)

     I have been thinking recently about all of the things in this world that I absolutely cannot stand. I hate. HATE.

     I hate it when the mac and cheese I'm eating turns to frozen mac and cheese in less time than it took me to make the goddamn thing.

     I hate the fact that technological devices can't just work when you need them to. Want to watch a movie? Nah, the DVD is just going to skip for no apparent reason whatsoever. 

     I hate the fact that my car keeps breaking. I fix one thing, something else, completely related to the first thing, decides to turn to shit. It's a vicious cycle. 

     I hate when the ice in my cup melts. It turns my entire drink into shit because it just tastes like water. I hate that.

     I hate when I can only find one of the shoes I am looking for. And this usually happens only when I am in a rush.

     This also goes hand in hand with losing anything, in general. I need keys? Oh, wait, I NEED them, therefore I can't find them. When I'm not looking for them, I know exactly where they fucking are. 

     I hate the general populace of human beings. Don't get me wrong, this is me completely hating myself as well, since I am, in fact, of the human species. I do human things, even though humans are in no way perfect, and even though they seemingly make me angry.

     For example, I hate asking stupid questions. "Are you going to the fourth floor?" "Is the fourth floor button lit up?" "Yeah." "Then I guess I'm going to the fourth floor."

     I hate the fact that I can't drive a stupid shopping cart through Wal-Mart. And neither can, seemingly so, anyone else.

     I hate the fact that I am so distracted by my life shit and what's going on in my day that  can't pay attention to the road. Or the cashier. Or my teacher. Or the fact that I passed a cop without my seat belt on.

     I hate that I can never get my hair or my makeup or my clothes exactly right. And I am probably one of those people that other people look at and think, "Oh, Lord, doesn't she own a mirror?"

     I hate the fact that sometimes I can get a little bit too proud, or loud, or arrogant, or impatient, or frustrated, or stressed, and then take it out on other people. Like humans do.

     I hate that I am writing things that I hate, in order to prove the point, that hating stupid shit is useless. 

     This is probably the stupidest post I have ever written, and I don't blame you for skipping right past the bullshit and reading just the resolution part. Which is why I will probably hate this post.   Damn.

      But pretty much, my fucking point of all this...

Resolution #010: Never hate. Hate is a wasteful emotion. It takes up too much time, effort, and thought. You really want to spend your days hating something? Or someone? Just take what is left of your life and live them happily, with love, with forgiveness, and with civility. It is okay to feel this emotion, because, after all, we are human. But to spend all of your effort on hate, well, that is just pointless.